To any of you who don’t know, I’m in the middle of a 30 day meditation challenge. This challenge has been self-imposed in hopes that I would make a habit of meditating as I have found it so difficult to do in the past. One of the reasons I’ve failed to make meditation part of my daily routine is a lack of time…or so I have told myself. But really, how hard is it to find 15-20 minutes a day to breathe and relax? Especially when its so good for reducing stress, inflammation and stress hormone production. Meanwhile, I find lots of time to spend on facebook… priorities my friends, priorities.
Well, like all new things I try – diets, exercise regimens and new year’s resolutions – I started out really well. I was consistent and set aside 15 minutes before bed to clear my mind. This gave me better sleep and quieted my mind. Until the night of the US presidential election. I stayed up until 2am to watch Obama speak (yay Obama!) and did my own vetoing of my meditation ritual. From here it was a slippery slope – getting home late from the Yeasayer concert and of course, the recent Whole Life Expo busyness had me playing hooky from my meditation practice.
And while I can beat myself up for ruining my 30 day stint an get all Pitta about my lack of discipline – but that isn’t the point of meditation. It is not a race to be won or a obstacle course to tackle. It is a practice of being mindful, and zen – and that means stopping the self-deprecation (which is always unproductive) and accepting that I’ve fallen off the wagon. So, last night I started up again. For all of you out there like me, who get discouraged by the difficulties of meditating – and even more discouraged when we don’t “succeed” – take a tip from me. Instead of dwelling on our inconsistency as a symbol of our inability to meditate, just take a deep breath and get back in the saddle because success isn’t about never failing. Its about how we deal with failure. And for me, the jury is still out on my journey through meditation. Game on 30 day challenge, game on.